Catch up?

How can I put it all into words?  The emotions and grounding that I have been lucky enough to start to feel over the last couple of months...not that there weren't and aren't still moments of WTF? but those are seemingly more spaced apart...finally. :)  Okay, not trying to jinx myself just noting it.

From the time I went down to Breitenbush to dance and hike and do some self love/time to now, things have been just shifting slowly but definitely showing signs of shifting in a good way.

I am about the dance when it comes to my dance.  I am about the joy that dancing with other people that love this dance too, and I am about teaching it to the best of my ability so people can dance this dance without hesitation and being full of joy themselves!!!

Breitenbush allowed me to reconnect with people that I haven't seen except on a cursory basis...that was wonderful.  I got to experience nature and being by myself when I needed to do that while there.  That was odd and wonderful at the same time, cause I have never seen that trail empty before other than me...but it was like it was supposed to be...just me.  I got to see some of the beauty of this wonderful world without any other distractions outside of Mother Nature herself.  I got to test myself and push myself.  I was allowed to return safely to be a part of the human collective that was finding themselves in their own way too.  I got to dance some more....all on my owns terms, which is a BIGGIE for me.

Especially still coming off the Cues & Tattoos weekend with my awesome students that brought their imperfect game but what was imperfect was PERFECTION in putting it out there - dancing and having fun!!!!!  I still couldn't be more proud of that day!

Fast forward, other things are happening in the world of dance for others, new "presentations" that are not what was expected and it is unfortunate and a bit angering, but other things are coming that will offset that...yay!  But I am here to do my thing and again be the best I can at what I do etc....yada yada yada ;)~

Then this weekend happened...omg, I can't express in words how good this felt and how many smiles from all the participants kept showing up - 35 year veterans to brand new people just gave themselves to me and seemed to have found a new form of expression they want to share too.  Wow, the impact on me is beyond words, I just hope those smiles were just a hint of the impact on them. 

Because of that my energies were up and maybe it rubbed off a bit on my students on Sunday cause wow, they even brought their best game thus far in class.  I was seeing not only smiles and more confidences, I was seeing the "turning themselves over to the dance and the movements" and not thinking so hard so they got to "feel" it and go with it. 

An amazing weekend in dance to be sure.

And then people wonder why I love this dance...it is because I feel whole and I love love love seeing others find the "love" too.  wow.....

Not forgotten...

I just lost the entire post I was about to make...so later I will try it again...just sayin.